duchess' requiem

where you are now..

2011-01-11T04:27:00.000-08:00

adieu...

up until 2010, i realized how perfectly liveable and unexplainably majestic our island is...

i am just so glad to have shared these expeditions with people i love :)

i will never have all these in exchange for anything else.

though i need to move someplace soon.. i would want to keep an entry...

i will never forget.. will never forget...

GUIMARAS ILO ILO: MAY 29 2009

BAGUIO: JAN 22-24 2010

PUERTO GALERA MAR 25-27 2010

Last supper

2007-09-28T07:51:00.000-07:00

recently joined a new team (Finance MLA) just this sept. these peeps rock! :) anyway, see this chick seated 2nd from left? she's the main reason why i named my entry as such.. finance is going to miss you sexy mama. dont worry, il be scouting for free chatbox para may hingahan tayong 2 :) pero til then, we know each other's pads on net just in case. hehehehe.

for an exclusive peek of finance team manila...

check out these hot babes and gorgeous ombres ever to grace your lcd's...

(fr l to r: kaye, meeh, mai, ivan, thea, kat)

ivan took over the shot for april :)

(standing fr l to r: Crissy-team manager, kat, thea, mai, meeh, april and kaye)

(seated l to r: ivan, gabs)

um.. ate kay...? cheese....?

this gal's the coolest team lead :) kabisyo ko ata to!

2007-09-26T10:30:00.000-07:00

THANKS FOR MAKING MY BIRTHDAY REALLY SPECIAL..

YOU ARE ALL SWEET BLESSINGS TO ME

ope to be with you guys soon...

miss meeh friends

2007-09-16T08:11:00.000-07:00

just some pixs.. havent had much of what they call 'time(?)' to layout everything :( but then again i'd drop by my home once in a wyl -- that i struggle to make time for..

0005 - july192007

2007-07-19T02:47:00.001-07:00

Nice, Im a living example of haywired isogashi-ness! hehehehe.

I'm currently gasping for air :) Barely 3 weeks from my atarashi kaisha.. and I have been tasked to do TONS of things... Sometimes I'm beginning to think... what made me go through choosing POS's and Script's from crystals and DDR's. Hmmm... but according naman to the kind peeps I've been ranting answers from... its perfectly normal. Sus! Give me naman normal (according to my terms and conditions) soon!!!!

BUT.. come to think of it... sabi nga din ng karamihan.. everything happens for a reason. So i guess.. i have to organize my cache and learn how to prioritze.. Sabi ni Lord tama na daw ang kadramahan at maging seryoso sa buhay..ok..ok.. :) Pero sana hindi naman niya mashado paduguin ilong ko ahahhahaha. (panu pati ba naman ngiti ng kaisha-mates ko me bayad ata) :)

And yeah.. I miss my home there at eastwood. hehehe eastwood is where my heart is ata! hmm... sana malipat nalang hp dun or vice versa.. wish some of my friends would be beside me sa cube hahahaha! bata! I just miss home.. un lang.

Kk. back to reality i guess.. still have to finsih a lot of readings..I mean studyings pala...

Write here soon... Oh and yah... sa lahat ng nakakaalam nitong mga kaibigan ko..sobrang miss ko na kayo....

0004 - may152007

2007-05-15T01:00:00.000-07:00

thanks to a dear friend...

Psalm 34:18

18 The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

Lunacy

2007-05-14T23:07:00.000-07:00

"No one would believe I touched the moon.

You are not one who would kiss the earth. Your life is spent dancing with the stars. And you know nothing but warmth in the cradle of the sky.

Hovering over the world
giving it light upon the night
always there yet never quite.

Long have I looked upon your face, one I never thought I would recognize. Mocked by the length of day, I would whisper lullabies to the wind, begging the world to fall asleep. So that you would return and I could once again serenade you with my gaze.

Even I was caught by surprise when finally you smiled back at me. For I am one used to the stifling solitude that is my destiny. So much that I find comfort in absolute stillness and only find my way in blinding darkness. That was how I fell in love with the night and come to know you.

And so it was that with a wicked twist of fate, or maybe it was just my strange fixation with pain, that I found myself yearning for nothing but a place in the heavens with you. It is a ridiculous impossibility only a recluse of my naive tolerance for tragedy could find absolute fascination in.

I therefore cannot blame the world, even with all my malice, for not being able to undersand. For I also can never come to terms with how they can fail to stumble in the dark because of your gentle light and never give you so much as simple acknowledgement of your presence. And I want to laugh for I was at least less occupied with my shadow to look to the reason it was cast.

No one will understand. And so it is no surprise that no one will find it less easier to believe that not only did I touch the moon but that you touched me back. And you did more than just that. You enfolded me with your passion and wooed me with poetry that would humble romance itself.

But the universe is as it would, and even Mother Nature will not find it in her heart to find me a spot in the infinite sky near you. So that the only way for us to be together is for you to leave your home in the heavens. But as much as I want to spend the rest of my waking moments with the whole of your being, I can never bear the thought of tearing you away from the sky. The world will never hear a word of it but I know you're ready to return all your light to the sun because you believe in the humility of my tiny glow. Nevertheless, we choose to stick it out where we are placed--tormentingly distant from each other.We both know that the world will blame me if you do step down to earth. And just like me, it pains you more to be the cause of that suffering than to have to wait for eternity to end just watching me from afar.

And so we wept our own goodbyes. I promise to keep singing love letters to the wind hoping the breeze of my heart will reach you. And you vow to always shower me with light enough to fill the world, knowing I'm there, awake in the slumber of our fate.

So it is that the world will end and they never would believe that everything is the way they all want it to be because of our great sacrifice. No one would ever believe because no one will ever know. They would hear my soulful songs and feel the footsteps of your light among them but they will never know that you are the notes of my melodies and I'm the reason you look upon the earth.

No one will ever believe I touched the moon."

0003 - may152007

2007-05-14T19:25:00.000-07:00

i declare today a non-lamentation day.

ei..'think i've done that every single day over the past hell-week now.
guess i wasn't quite successful. proof? hmm... i can barely open my eyes for a week, aside from my conjunctivitis which is way past its supposed healing period.

i have to congratulate my tearglands and all of its nerve-accomplices for continuously doing a great job..amidst the tired me. wish someday they would fail.. and i wish that someday would be soon...

i also would like to commend my hypothalamus..hehe if it wasn't for them.. i wouldn't be name-called emotionally unstable!

anyway..do you have any medical or even parasitological term for hurt? just holler if you do.. i'll be so glad to add 'em to my vocabulary. oh yeah before i forget..i need some saving soon...

0002 - may092007 - a few good men

2007-05-09T18:30:00.000-07:00

meet joey bosley and two of his angels abby (left) & michi (ryt).

san ka pa makakakita ng mga taong walang sing-gulo...?!!!..BUT..

..three of those few who would guide you back to sane world.

I should've known they're my medicine.

since my nerve wrecking experience..it was just tonight that i

heard myself laughing really hard again..and somehow i had a smile on my face.

binitbit nila ako sa 'pink' na siyudad ( marikina :P )

ordered pizza, hotwings tapos sola. and i had a quick tour of

'pink city central' heheehe (well, kailngan magpababa ng kinain no?!).

but it wasn't the tour that made that night memorable.

sarap lang ng feeling... na hilahin ka mula sa kumunoy... netong mga to..

at hindi lang un...maging kabilang sa cool na cool na

circle of trust...

i learned a lot from the guy in the middle.

i was just so thankful i came to know why he was a blessing to

those two pretty girls (maniwala kau kht nktlikod yan!) beside him.

ngalang, i had to learn the hard way...

grabeh...lakas mang-asar eh hahaha!

basta mahal ko tong 3 to.. mga pre..slmat :) chka..dito lang ako sa

kabilang cubicle pag me roadtrip...

la ng iyakan...

0001 - may052007

2007-05-09T02:39:00.000-07:00

never heard so much cursing, shouting..
lifted the handbreak, tried to wipe off tears, grabbed my
stuff, managed to open the door and bulged out with shaky knees, weakened heart, unstable gutt, and whatever's left of my flushed-away self-esteem.
at 1230 am in the middle of an almost empty parking space
with merely 2 sleepy on-duty guards i patiently stood and waited for a cab thinking real hard about the things i have done to deserve what was pretty much a ruthless experience.
I called up a bestfriend, and tried begging her to stay on line til i got a decent ride home. I felt so exhausted and humiliated and hurt--really hurt all at the same time.
Yet this was just the beginning...
never imagined how someone you so looked-up to and respected and loved would forget that sometime before he promised to take good care of me and what we had.
Before this night he took me far beyond what i ever wanted...
And tonight...he just let go.

watashi no kazoku desu...

2007-05-08T02:49:00.000-07:00

got to spend a very quick summer with my jewels...
i had to lose my favorite lola before we even realized

the importance of spending time together...
i wish you were still with us...
i love you nay...and i miss you as much...

name calling

2007-04-12T23:21:00.000-07:00

name calling - tawag sa past time ng mga antagonista

madami akong best friends. at madami silang mga advices. sabi nung isa-- "name-calling is a mortal sin " (esp pag ginawa mo un sa mahal mo :p - 1st thing to do when that happens is break-up wth ur bad-mouthed partner). sabi naman nung isa-- "...we all have our own office stories..its up to us how we can turn negatives to positives". what can i do....? i have wonderful, good-natured bestfriends..(lucky meeh)

sinulat ko to hindi para manghikayat na magka-mortal sin kau.

sinulat ko to hindi para guluhin ang bokabularyo niyo.

sinulat ko to dahil gaya niyo me sarili kaming issues sa opis.

sinulat ko to para mas me mabuti kaung gawin kesa hayaan ang diwang mag-spaceout nalang basta.

sinulat ko to para mahasa ang imahinasyon at ang talas ng isip ng mga gustong mag-silent revenge sa mga taong nakakaurat na talaga.

anong pinagsasabi ko?---read on...

mahal at mura

- twag sa sobrang annoying na technically-hindi-kambal-pero-magkasing-height at laging magkasama na nilalang

- nararapat mag-ingat dahil makamandag lalu't hindi mo sila mapapansin sumusulpot at dumadaan sa tagiliran mo

agua oxigenada empire

- tawag sa mundong napakasikip, lahat ng papasok ay magiging claustrophobic

- ang maganda dito eh may life time supply ng betaloc (advantage sa mga me highblood at sa mga nagpapanggap ding meron)

- mundo na puros press release..kaya dapat ding mag-ingat at wag magpadala at maniwala sa kahit anong sasabihin

- nanganganib ang buhay ng bulsa't pitaka mo pag may kaya ka..ngunit me chansa naman mailigtas mo sila kung me kaya ka na at the same time gwapo/bigotilyo ka

detention group

- sang bagong tawag sa unyong mainit sa mata ng mga choochoo

- pilit binubuwag ng kung anumang paraang alam nila, subali't hindi ito natitinag

- patuloy itong maghahasik at maghahasik ng lagim para sa IKABUBUTI ng karamihan

helmet

- tawag sa sang taong headturner na nabulagan sa partner niyang wala akong maisip na magandang deskripsyon

- tagalog na version ng kantang pinasikat ni tiffany nung 90's

hipon

- tawag sa taong KUPAL at BEE-ATCH na ginagamit ang katawan para magtagumpay sa kanilang mga plano

- wag na nating pag-usapan ang parteng ulo

committed

- tawag sa taong mashadong O.A. sa lahat ng bagay

- di na kasi to uso ngayon kaya't naging masama nadin ang kahulugan

gulong

- bagong basihan at sukatan ng pagkakaibigan

- magingat sa mga taong merong laruang me gulong dahil oras na kinanti mo ang gulong nila, maaari mo tong ikamatay

merging

- bagong terminolohiyang me salungat na kahulugan - paghihiwalay (mahabang kwento)

parang girl

- tawag sa mga lalaking mas madami pang kaartehan kesa sa mga babae (take note this applies to straight-in-a-realtionship-guys)

pantry

- lugar kung san pagkalabas ng 2 perfect strangers ay magkakaroon ng unexplainable connection

beach bellies

- bagong competiton ng bikini open na puros kalalakihan na me unique AB ang kalahok

- sukatan ng umbok ang basihan ng mananalo

chapter 1

2007-04-12T20:17:00.000-07:00

this was during the period of my so-called first chapter.
i hooked up with these great guys to temporarily set aside insanity.
't was 1 saturday midnight of roadtrip, sharing,
cant-count-uncontrollable outbursts (courtesy of urs truly),
exciting game of granium,
moments of realizing blessings
(such as havng gorgeous friends)
amidst tang'nang katangahan,
coffee (never absent),
close-encounter-to-having-frost bites,
fun..fun and more
fun.

can't thank you enough..owe you guys..immortal life,
o sige na nga corny.. to nalang

para kay helki - ikulong sa kwarto wth _ _ _ _ _ forever

para kay melvin - ung 2 gulong ng miniature plane niya (long story)

para kay dio - sang sobrang bait na girlfriend...ehem

para kay michel - anak daw pero alang asawa..tsktsk
-pwede bang ung power pens nalang?kahit 3 pa.. teeheee

o, para sakin din....hmmm...basta mawala na sila lahat!!!pakshiyeet..
wag lang po mga kaibigan ko, pamilya ko si God...chaka kape

review ur numbers II

2007-04-11T03:09:00.000-07:00

need to expound...?....nah!

pagbigyan na..

review ur numbers I

2007-04-11T03:01:00.000-07:00

top 1's compulsory list

2007-04-11T00:23:00.000-07:00

spent 2 tiring days at the not so exciting lago

(forgive sum1 hu's bn there 2x!)

demo..had fun at stop-overs, taragis!

tanong pa ba yan!?! buo na bsta me hithit at may sipsip!

meeh n my best buds: herks, boplox 1, boplox 2

chaperone & muh smoke buddy couple

diff view daw

op kme kay melvs

lst shot b4 heading home

(op kmeng 3 sa 2 nasa gitna teeheee)